Tuesdays are always emotional days for me.
I’ve talked and wrote about them extensively throughout the past forty-seven of them. On the day he was born, I knew I’d always have trouble tackling them. It was the day my life had changed on. They’ve transformed into a day I’m forced to begin my grief week again, instead of being happy Jensen’s getting bigger and learning how to do more.
There hasn’t been one that I haven’t cried or been so angry about all the weeks that have passed. Some have brought me smiles as I remember the moments I had with Jensen and all the love he still brings me. If there’s one thing that’s for sure, it’s been a year full of eventful Tuesdays.
Including this very special one.
On the Valentine’s Day post, I shared a picture of Jensen bear and the love wood slice. Although starting an Etsy shop had been on my mind for a few months before that, I wanted to see if anyone would actually be interested in what I was creating. Honestly, I didn’t think anyone would. Grief has a great way of making people’s confidence go down the drain… and all parts of the self, but I’m not getting into that today.
Since that post, I’ve been trying to make some more things that my heart was telling me. I pulled out two pieces of wood that I’ve had my eye on for a while and then ideas started pouring out. Some that I haven’t even posted yet. Once I was pleased with what I made, I took pictures, uploaded them here, and started the process of making listings on Etsy. As anything, I’ve written and reread through everything to make sure it was
as perfect as it can get.
I thought, as a pretty sentimental person, that I would open shop on a Tuesday; I thought it’d be good to have another positive one in the books.
Everyone, I want to introduce you to my Etsy shop, Grey Woods Design:
This little shop’s purpose is to help me be able to create through my grief and keep my mind busy when I’m home alone. More important, it’s going to be my labor of love. I am hoping it’ll give me some kind of spark in a way that I’m able to mother this concept I have imagined then created. I’m very anxious about how the shop is going to go, but I am SO excited to get my first order and help others remember and honor their child. Of course, this is for living children as well. But, it’s another way I can share a part of Jensen and I’s story and breaking the silence around baby loss.
One more thing I’d like to share with you all is why I named the shop what I did.
Grey. Obviously for Mr. Jensen Grey. I wanted and had to include my baby in this little business. Seeing a part of his name on there makes me feel like his legacy is continuing in a different way. It honestly makes me instantly smile when I see the color grey or the word. Just was the perfect part to add there.
Woods. All but one listing on the Etsy shop is made from wood. I wanted to be able to have that connection there. It’s also used because my life sort of revolved around wood products with my job, my house, and nature. Which, nature has always been a connection to Jensen and so it fit.
Design. I think this is pretty self-explanatory.
That’s the quick description of how I came up with the name. I absolutely love it. It is a perfect tribute to Jensen, but also to my creativity and lifestyle. Starting this venture (like I said before) is terrifying, but, like in all things I do, I hope it will be able to help someone and make them smile. That’s really what helps me heal. Knowing that Jensen and I can make a positive impact in someone else’s life is such a gift to this pained mama.
I hope you all are able to check Grey Woods Design out and let me know what you think. It’s always such a stabilizing thought knowing I have your support in this grief journey. Lately it’s been really rough and I’ve been quiet, but I’m still taking those steps with Jensen right there with me.