Last year was the first time I participated in Project Kindness, which was created by the MISS Foundation in 1996. It was a really happy day for me, which was crazy because I was only three months out from Jensen’s birth. That was a time where it was hard for me to find the light, but taking part of this day last year made me smile and laugh out loud.
This year, the day sort of snuck up on me. Instead of being way prepared like I was last year, I saw the post last night and it registered that it was today. So, I woke up, got ready, and left.
My first stop was to Starbucks. The community hasn’t always had one of these, but I thought I would make my way there. There’s a big drive through and it’d be perfect to start a chain through of kindness through that. After I ordered my drink, I told the girl at the window (who was one of the nicest people I’ve ever met) that I wanted to pay for the person behind me and if she could please give them Jensen’s card.
Turns out, the lady behind me got the same exact drink as I did.
After that, I went to go buy some flowers.
This is my favorite act of kindness. I’ve always loved getting flowers and I imagined Jensen picking them for me. It’s a very special act that I can do and it’s really easy to just leave on someone’s window. I’d like to think it’s a happy surprise for them.
At the store I buy them from, I saw this bright orange wrapping and knew those were the ones I was going to buy. They reminded me so much of Jensen. Then I found a few cars and left then on their windshield. It’s always funny to look back at me scurrying from my car to theirs. I probably look like an idiot, but it makes me laugh when I sit back inside. It’s such a rush.
Last, but not least, I took some flowers for my mom. She’s done so much for me all of my life and through my losses. I’ll never be able o thank her enough. Hopefully having some fresh flowers in her house will give her some happiness. I put them in one of her vases, left a note signed from Jensen and I, and set them on her island.
These acts of kindness might not seem elaborate, but they don’t have to. In doing these, I hope it gives that person a reason to smile. For me, it’s a way I can raise awareness about pregnancy and infant loss and to share Jensen’s love.
If you’ve found my page from one of the acts I did today, I’d love to hear from you! Thank you for looking more into my little gift to you.