Dear Jensen,
It’s National Sons Day and parents are posting pictures of their favorite little guys.
When I see everyone’s post, I smile because every child is so special and worthy of being shared. They’re proud of their sons and when it was National Daughter’s Day, they were all proud of their daughters too. Just like I was when I posted Mila’s picture.
On that day, I paused and thought about all the grieving moms and dads whose daughters died. I know that sting of seeing other kids grow.
It helped me prep myself for this day, because I wish I had pictures of you at five.
Instead, I get to post my favorite pictures of you when you were born. It’s my day to share how proud I am of my son, of you. I get to talk about how you made me a mom and how even though you’re not here with me, I get to love you more and more every day.
You and Mila both know that every day in our home is kid’s day. In different ways, you and Mila are the focus of everything I do.
I still get to buy the ‘boy’ things and Mila brings them to your bear. She still talks to you all the time at home. Sometimes she even talks for you, with her deep Jensen voice. It always feels like you’re right there with us and I know you’re there. Just as much as Mila is celebrated, you are too, my sweet boy.
On this Son’s Day and all the future ones, I want you to know that you are never forgotten and that I’m so proud to be your mom.
You were the one to teach me how to love unconditionally and to show me the meaning of life.
I love you and miss you always.
Love,
Your Mom
Grey Skies & Rainbow Highs 
You are such a great mom. I’m so sorry that you’ve been through this. You seem so strong and accepting of everything. I know that in itself must have been a journey. Thank you for sharing your story and being vulnerable. Your strength is inspiring.
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Thank you so much. Life’s such a journey and living after loss has been up and down. I’m just happy to share Jensen and his impact on me.
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How wonderful it is that your daughter is growing up knowing exactly who her brother is and that he is still so much a part of you both. You are a strong woman!
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Thank you! I couldn’t imagine not talking about him or her not knowing him.
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It’s so beautiful the ways you honor him, continually. I’m so very sorry for your loss but appreciate your taking the time to share your story – I’m sure it helps countless others grieving and feeling very alone!
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Thank you so much. I love being able to share our story and most importantly Jensen.
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Blessings to you momma!
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Thank you!
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Such a beautifully sweet way to share your pain and treasure. It’s always kids day here too. Stay well and keep inspiring us all.
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Your a great mum. Your daughter will have your strength when she grows up
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I am so sorry to learn of your son’s passing. That really is such a difficult thing to deal with. While I can’t relate to losing a child, I lost my parents at a young age and so things like holidays and Mother’s Day were always particularly difficult. Thinking of you especially on such a difficult occasion.
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